My name is Juan, I'm 32 years old. Originally from mexico. I'm single, I have no Children. I'm looking for friendship because I'm tired of being alone. If you are reading this, you're probably asking yourself why I say the things I say, and I will be honest: I'm looking for friendship because I want to feel alive again.
I'm sentenced to death, practically waiting to die, and for a long time, I've carried this great hope that I'm not going to die like this; away from my homeland and of all the people who saw me grow up. I've been here for almost 11 years and I feel that each day that goes by, a piece of me –The part that hold my hopes and dreams- dies. Maybe I'm being selfish when I say that I don't want to die, but I don't want to die for something I did not do.
And I could live, the rest of the days that are left here, regretting everything that wasn't done at my trial to help me, but that's not going to help me. I need help, I need support to have a better chance at fighting for my life.
As far as my life here, I don't have too much freedom to do anything. I'm locked in my cell 22 hours of the day and every time I go out of my cell, my hands are shackles like an animal. I know I'm not a bad person who needs to be treated in such a way, but they (The system) make their own rules.
All he freedom that we get is when going out to visit, for some of us very rarely, going out to recreation, 2 hours, and less than 15 minutes for a quick bath. We are not allowed TV, only a small AM/FM radio if you have the funds.
On the positive side, I try to make good use of my time doing things that can benefit me in my situation; such as reading books. Educational books that help m to learn how to better understand and write English, and other books, writing, a little drawing, a little exercise. I have dreamt,, I'm a dreamer, although that's all it is: Dreams.
My English is not perfect, written or spoken, but I try to learn a little more every chance I get. Spanish is my first language so I know how to write and speak Spanish much better.
Thank you for your time. If God puts it in your heart to write to me, please do so, you're not going to regret it. Have a good day, Thanks!
Juan Alvarez 999332 Polunsky Unit 3872 F.M. 350 South Livingston, TX, 77351 USA